Death of a person is a tragedy, of a thousand statistics

Over 120,000 people left life in a giffy down in south Asia, earthquake and life-devouring gales and waves. Last year this time more or less half the same number of people were devoured in Bam.

Time and Being

within 32 hours the year 2004 will end and a new, not necessarily new in its orthodox sense, year will begin. It is rather another year that invites us to attempt what we didn't or restore what we did, it is another opportunity to keep going the usual path or to deviate and determine what to do. 2004 was a year of great disappointments for me and at the same time a year of big success. Seems that the more years pass by, the vicissitudes of failure and success get sharper, higher and lower points. That's what Kundera points to in his Slowness.

getting to start Coetzee's Disgrace

Merry Christmas

nobody drank coffee with me or crisis in oasis is the name of my so-called second novel in English
it's christmas and I'm congratulating myself as no one did to me except for a friend, well it's a lonely world after all
I open my champagn alone

I didn't do much today (I mean yesterday). mostly busy with pc and scanner and shit. yesterday made grill in my room with a microwave, today nothing remained of the fruit for Solstice, what a binge!
last year this time with Hasti, this year without her, next year???

Absence and Loss

Was eating my breakfast and thinking of Narcissism in Freud and Klein and the actual death of the mother when it occured to me that besides psychoanalytical side of the fact each individual then becomes the loneliest creature. When one's parents are gone and s/he thinks her/is roots are lost or the ones causing her/is existence are extinct, what kind of emotional aura falls round the ego that culminates in mourning/melancholia/mania, and what factors decide which way to take?

My Big Sleep

Can't sleep. Not because of here and now, not even because of yesterday-tomorrow syndrome; it's more than a decade I can't sleep well. Never a good sleeper. Perhaps I'll sleep The Big Sleep once I am ready for it. Till then the opportunity to keep my cause going among other causes is to be used. Later may say a word on determinism and fatalism.

the first reaction

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you...
R.Kipling

Compagnon

Busy with Compagnon Literature, Theory and Common Sense. Should finish my paper by Tuesday . It's all on where we shall finally lay claim of the responsibility for meaning: the author, the text, or the reader. Will paste the gist of my article (a survey of the book) later. It's relatively an interesting review.

First Post Again

This time, unlike previous times, I am really determined to keep it going no matter what!